It's Me Kelest

Nobody Knows It But Me
Babyface

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say

How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me

I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
You'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle
It's been torn all apart
A million words wouldn't say
Just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be lovin' you still

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Tomorrow mornin'
I'm hittin' the dusty road
Gonna find you whereever,
Ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Saturday, April 14, 2007
1:12 PM

Heavy Rain

Went to meet Ah Ger n Jason for lunch at jurong west st 91. Juz when i step out of the house rain started pouring n its very heavy rain. So i got no choice since i alrdy told ah ger i'm meeting her so have to meet her. Called for a cab went to pick them up at st 93 then we go lunch. Halfway through our lunch it starts to rain heavily, no choice again have to wait for the rain to stop coz baby jannon is with us. Its a long wait so in the end we bought umbrella n walk to the bus stop n got a cab bk to ah ger's house.
Ah ger is so funny when i throw a fat from the char siew into my bowl she yell at me saying why u dun give me? I was puzzled so i asked her u wan the fat? She says," no i wan the mien fen gao!" I was like hey there is only about 4 pieces left lor. She says," i wan mah" so i ask her to order another bowl she says order another bowl will be too much liao lol. We had a good laugh.
Back at her place pinky which is her dog made a mess of herself n got a beating n a bath. Not long after we reach D.J called she wans me to help her look after her kids so i asked her to bring them overto Ah Ger's place. Later then i will bring them bk to W.C with me.

Written By Hazel

Friday, April 13, 2007
1:48 AM

PINK VAIO !!!

Bought my pink viao today! I'm so happy i've been wanting to get it for so long now i finally got it haha. One thing i dun like about it is that its using window vista i still prefer xp. Now i have to do all the setting n install the programs i wan. Kind of tiring for me coz im very lazy how i wish help woud come lol.

Written By Hazel

Sunday, March 25, 2007
3:40 AM

Today is a sad day had a fight with my younger sis regarding her camera. She lost her camera the other day while accompanying me to my ut. So she called me up n check with me to see if her camera is with me. I told her no n i told her that i put it in her bag for her at Bugis but she couldn't find it. She was saying things like what i dun remember u tell ing me u brought my camera out n out it in my bag for me. So i flare up too as she is not talking in a good tone i told her again clearly that i put it in her bag n know wat she asked me to do die n hung up my phone!!! I was so pissed tat i call her up n guess wat she answered n juz shouts go die go die n hang up!!!!! Lolz i faint liao coz of anger. Later her hubby answer although he talks nicely to me but i was there shouting over the phone sorry jason u r caught between us. The thing that makes pissed me off most is that i was being nice thought she left her camera at mom's place so as im meeting her i bring it out for her coz she loves to take photos for baby jannon. Dont want her to missed out the cute moments of baby jannon's growing stage, but instead she blame me for causing the lost of the camera. Well everything must have a ending after cooling down we apologise to each other n everything is well again! We work together to trace back our steps to see if we might have misplaced it at home instead. But sadly no the camera is lost and gone forever.
Its ok jess birthday is coming so maybe i will get a new camera for her if she haven got one by that time. Well although im not the one who lost the camera i feel tat im partly responsible too coz im the last one who seen the camera if i didnt bring it to her that day it wont be lost!!!

Written By Hazel

Thursday, March 22, 2007
2:35 AM

Boring life

Spending time has never been easy especially when i have to be out of the house! Its a everyday thing for working ppl but finding a place to go n planning a trip is not easy on a weekday when everyone else is working! Who would have the time to accompany me to roam about? Hectic lifes for everyone EXCEPT ME!!!

Written By Hazel

Monday, March 19, 2007
4:05 PM

Shopping Day

Juz the same normal shopping day at Jurong Point. Mom & Jess bought a beautiful pram for baby Jannon a pink one which is really very nice. For me i bought undergarments haha spent over $400 on them omg. i'm spending like there is no tomorrow got to control abit. this month i really spend tooo much. Hmm so sian tomorrow have counselling have to wake up early so tonight cant stay up too late. How i hope i dun have to go for this stupid counselling!!!!

Written By Hazel

Sunday, March 18, 2007
11:49 PM

Im Back!!!!!!!!!

Hi friends its been a long time since i post so now im going to start posting again.

Written By Hazel

Tuesday, November 14, 2006
9:41 PM

When Will..

When will the feeling ever go away...the feeling of standing all alone in this place without u..without ur heart...without ur voice..without ur love...when will it go away and give mi the pen back..i'm crumbling...down down down...down...i wanna hide away from the world that saw my lonely face..i wanna walk away from the darkness..look for the light...60 letters...i'm not writing 5lines everytime i pick up the pen..i wrote 50lines...i scribble my heart out...i searched my heart out..i empty my heart out...all into pieces of papers and threads and threads of ink..how could this be mi...my writing...my letters..i wrote lines after lines...silence answered my letters..pity sounded in my ears...emptiness filled my heart...how do i carry this pen..this pen that didn't cared about anything but writing...now that tears fill this ink..i'm writing in the air...my answer will come...my answer will come..i hanged on for long with no reaction but juz a thanks...is it what a reaction will be knowing that someone wrote so much for u...but u have no idea y did he do it...no friend does this..no friend holds such a pen for a friendship...do u hear mi...this pen has lied down to fade in in silence...my answer will come...

Written By Hazel